Lots of times I hate it, and sometimes I like it a lot. Lots of times I write a great post only to delete it ten minutes later. I think it is because I like the idea of sharing and I like the idea of writing and I like the idea of a random place to record random whatevers....but whenever I try to write a post I feel bombarded by what other people must be thinking of me. In high school I affectionately called this idea Bethany's Imaginary Audience. They were kind of an obnoxious, critical, self-important lot. When I came to BYU and learned all sorts of fascinating things about human development and Piaget and Elkind, I renamed them my adolescent egocentrism.
I'm 21 now (a bonafide adult!) and I still can't seem to shake them. So now I'm just sort of an inverse egotist who underexaggerates personal ability and merit. It is a little bit ridiculous, and has been for some time, so I propose a change. A movement! A revolution to become better! To become kind and selfless and empathetic, to disband my worries, and to be not so very conceited.
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